Bunny

bunny头歪歪地，急坏了人。大家都不知道为什么。

云姐姐知道－是bunny告诉她的。
因为．．．
我是很乖的bunny，所以，
天使姐姐为我带了个光圈，重重的，所以，头，就歪歪了。

可是我却急坏了妈妈，让她为我团团转。
我知道她很爱我，起早贪黑地为我早餐，固定观察我的状况。
所以我告诉天使姐姐，如果当了天使，我一定要在天堂上，一直看着妈妈，一直守护妈妈～

妈妈，不哭了～
其实你能多睡一会儿，不用为了我操心，我真的很开心～

妈妈，我没有走哦～
我一直都在你的心里^^

With lots of love ~

goodbye to the old layout ^^

啃肯～

心血来潮，买了toblerone 来啃。

好友们都知道，我是啃巧克力大王－当大家都说好甜的时候，我的，已经啃光了。

我就是一个那么爱甜的人，明明知道凡事不可过火，但是还是津津有味地依偎在甜甜的怀抱里～

今天，破天荒地，我竟然对巧克力腻了。

一根toblerone，啃得我心慌慌，到最后竟然有种快要生病的感觉　><

所以凡事量腹而食，度身而衣，不无道理。

人，就是不行每件事都想甜甜地过。

甜到尽头全是腻，蛀牙伤身。

人生亦是如此。太甜则不切实际，不甜则皱眉忧郁。

涩涩甜甜的～好甘甜的人生～^^

人生

我们来办家家酒-你是悲伤，他是快乐。两杯参杂喝下- 好纯的人生~


今天，嘴巴破皮了，就以为是冷气太冷了所以嘴唇裂开了。
没想到竟然是免疫力低，肿起来-一个大泡泡-疼~


疼，似乎已经到了麻木的地步。
好像在哪里看到说，摔倒的次数直达麻木时，还站起来，就代表你根本没有被击倒过-如果感觉击倒，那也是脑播放的影像-如果无动于衷，那就变成了假象。


今天，太疼了。
世事本质即是变-没有永恒的道理。
看通了，就不执着，那，也就没有痛了。


几米说过，感谢伤痛让我更灵敏。


也对-不痛不痒的人生，就算有很多快乐-也无从可比，所以，又怎么懂得快乐呢？

痛过哭过后，就站起来。光坐着伤口会会因为坐着的压力而更伤更痛。


站起来，可以选择敷药，选择去疤，选择以后该怎么样才不会再痛。


所以，站起来，即使再痛，也不比失去希望坐着等死痛～　加油^^

Bless in Disguise^^

I have to admit, that BFIA is really stressful. Guess I tend to overdo things- trying to find the best pictures of best angles that portray the best malaysian style @@

And yet, I couldnt help but wanting to say thank you so much to this program, because through the process of preparing the slides, i was reminded of my dear family members- how people just used to taking each other for granted, but your family will stand still for you and protect you no matter what happens. that is family, and that is the ultimate, simplest love one can ever get~

The only reason i want to go back to Malaysia, would be my family ^^

Thank you , BFIA^^

Spell H-A-P-P-Y^^

thank you my dear ^^
your hospitality is really heartening ^^

you taught me one thing:
Happiness is just about having a cup of self grinned coffee in a rainy day, reading a nice book, while snuggling under a nice cozy blanket ~^^
Put aside the exam papers, put away the hustle-bustle; that is how u will never forget how to spell H-A-P-P-Y~^^

You don't pursue, you realize ^^~
Happiness is not running away, instead we chose to run after, when it is stone's throw away, when maybe it is just beside us ~ ^^

i love you~ please take care dear ^^ it is upsetting to hear you cough :(

weird sense of achievement@@

is squeezing brain juice for tomorrow's open test

there are only 4 questions:
1. 1.    What is the theory of two cosmic forces and Five elements and what are their roles in Confucian philosophy?

2. What are the unique characteristics of shamanism and how it is alive in contemporary Korean society?

3. What are the distinctive features of Korean Buddhism?

4. Why is Korean Son Buddhism called ‘pan Buddhism’? 

and here i am trying to find the perfect answer for number 1, and for everyone's information, time spent on question 1: 4 hours @@

well i have to admit reading the 18 page journal on Zhou dun yi's supreme ultimate diagram is not at all easy @@ 

it is a loser phrase, yet i am using it right here right now : i am trained for 1 and half year to study things within, resort to science, resort to definitions, resort to rules, resort to experiments- no prove, dont you even dare to say that-- imagine we even define what is fact, what is inference, what is hypothesis, so what do you expect from a psychology student when it comes to "ultimate void is ultimate principle"@@

i have to honestly admit, despite my liking for philosophy, this is totally faint! 

the 18-page journal ended up nicely gobbling up my 4 hours for understanding and writing it out as answer @@ 

but i feel good peeps^^ 

coz bad to say, and naughty to say :P that i have a few people whom i know mastering in different majors using english, i guess my work for one night can be equated to theirs for a week ^^ so i am so over the moon because i feel i am doing something very Heavy @@

that is a very weird sense and reason for feeling happy right XD 

well i figure i am like that, work myself to perfection, not 100% that kind, at least i can explain myself when self-conscious is condemning me for a lousy work. if the marks are low, i will try to see why ^^ because what is the most important thing, i can understand what is happening myself, not external forces defining what is happening to what i have done, things like marks ^^

lastly, yen^^ fighting ^^ susu su slarp!!! ^^ 

Happy^^

Today i am happy ^^

I was in dire need for help for the wednesday paper- since it is 3-5 pages, and I do not wanna rush over it and submit my own crap without proper citation, trying to ask around for psychology friend's id and password for logging into the journal website of our uni's library ~

well worth trying one by one coz you never know who is gonna lend you ^^
finally Christine lend me ^^
she is always the quiet one in our class, love reading manga, especially khonan^^ haha and tsubaki choronicles~
i remembered i worked with her once on IO project^^ she was really flexible and nice working with <3 like it ^^

thank you so much christine ^^
wish you all the best for you thesis proposal kies^^

One Step by A Time 一步步

不知道什么时候，自己也变成了自己很讨厌的类型--攀比，管别人的成绩。
not like asking around would score yourself a point.
완전 허송 ><

今天，很感谢日本老师答应让我们上课。
其实不该埋怨- 最愚蠢的莫过于为了他答应让我们上他课的理由而难过。
不是因为咱们极力争取，因为在这儿一段时间，直到有些事情，特别是科目，无论怎么争取, no matter how beautifully phrased the promise is, well, it remains as stereotypical type of promise-- promise wont come true.

其实目的已经达到了-学日语。
为什么犯了一个自己已经明白很久的道理-- 目标达到了，在没有伤天害理的情况下。那为何要这么在乎目标是怎么达到的？
把帮助我达到目标的人当贵人，也许自己也比较开心。

很久没有自我分析，所以在想，也许是来到这儿才发觉自己有多么地不足，很多事情得靠朋友- 地理性--去哪儿玩儿， 韩语，我宛如初学者，牙牙学语的小孩，stumbled my way upon the unknowns, letting it tearing down my self esteem.
就是因为有比较，所以才一直觉得很不堪，什么都不好，再加上自己擅长的一直没法发挥，也心急交朋友，所以言语上也变得不可爱了- 喜欢八卦，喜欢埋怨，喜欢talk in conforming manner.

难怪会觉得怎么来韩后好象变了另一个人。
很谢谢今天的日文课， 让我重新再发觉，人生如果学习是为了攀比，那如果再也没有攀比后，是不是就一直颓废着不学了，止步了？
为什么要让攀比支配自己的人生，让它决定我要学什么，逼自己什么。

学习不是就是学自己喜欢的？
就像当初，对日语的热爱。

原来最近感觉老师这个原因啊~
所做的事情缺了热爱，热诚- 都变机械化。

原来我脱轨了。。
很难过的一件事--我竟然脱轨这么久了。
可是也很高兴。
就是因为脱轨，然后再让我发现，才会更珍惜正常行轨的日子~

今天的目标：31-3-2011
走自己的脚步，不要转头看别人怎么走。
因为我有我自己的风格。
但如果有人摔倒或不会走路，我会扶他/她一把~
这样大家都开心^^咱们，可以一起走~