但经过狂风暴雨的洗礼，挖心掏肝地，三百六十五日为结局续集后，哪里，蜕变了。
一个人，不好。当然不好了。
有着之前爱着，被爱的感觉衬托着，一个人，非常不好。
然而，日子过了。一天，一个月，一整年。
视野变了。心情变了。伤疤变了。故事，也想变了。
其实自己没有义务当悲情女主角~
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Sunday 16 December 2012
Saturday 24 November 2012
利诱。理由
爱的时候，没有理由。
不爱的时候，不成理由的理由，很多很多。
受伤的，总是认为自己哪里做错了，哪里不对。所有的事，都往自己身上扛。
可是就算事实是这样，也并没有让自己更好过。
更何况，事实，真的就是这样吗？
谁对，谁不对。真的。对受伤的当事者，这或许是唯一的答案。
也许自己真的错了。也许，是对方不当。也许，是一个天不时，地不利，人不合的因素。
一件事的发生，究竟能有多少因子？很多，很多。
不爱了，变心了。
就算不是理由，为了让自身好过，为了能混过良心的关卡，一定会用。
所以，就算理由真的提及你的不妥，你的不当，你所有所有最坏的一面，你可以选择相信，然后往自己身上扛。
但亲爱的受伤的你，
这也是一个对方用来让自己好过的借口，一个对他/她有利的桥段。
真的不要用别人的烂招，来让自己不好过。
当初对方说爱你的话，也被你三思过好几遍。怎么对你不利，伤害你的话，你那么容易就轻信呢？
情到深处总是伤。
都受伤了。
别在伤口上，洒一把不属于，不合适的言（盐），好吗？
不爱的时候，不成理由的理由，很多很多。
受伤的，总是认为自己哪里做错了，哪里不对。所有的事，都往自己身上扛。
可是就算事实是这样，也并没有让自己更好过。
更何况，事实，真的就是这样吗？
谁对，谁不对。真的。对受伤的当事者，这或许是唯一的答案。
也许自己真的错了。也许，是对方不当。也许，是一个天不时，地不利，人不合的因素。
一件事的发生，究竟能有多少因子？很多，很多。
不爱了，变心了。
就算不是理由，为了让自身好过，为了能混过良心的关卡，一定会用。
所以，就算理由真的提及你的不妥，你的不当，你所有所有最坏的一面，你可以选择相信，然后往自己身上扛。
但亲爱的受伤的你，
这也是一个对方用来让自己好过的借口，一个对他/她有利的桥段。
真的不要用别人的烂招，来让自己不好过。
当初对方说爱你的话，也被你三思过好几遍。怎么对你不利，伤害你的话，你那么容易就轻信呢？
情到深处总是伤。
都受伤了。
别在伤口上，洒一把不属于，不合适的言（盐），好吗？
Wednesday 31 October 2012
粉丝
仿佛所有很酷的人，都是崇拜的对象。
粉丝会觉得，该怎么做，才会变得像自己崇拜的那样。
总是，
很灼热的眼神，很敬佩的心，却又很渺小的自己，
抬头瞻望那些崇拜的对象。
与其举旗高呼崇拜
何时
粉丝会发现
自己虽有不足
可是也可以举旗高喊崇拜自己
偶尔偶尔
会发现自己的美
觉得自己其实很不错~
粉丝会觉得，该怎么做，才会变得像自己崇拜的那样。
总是，
很灼热的眼神，很敬佩的心，却又很渺小的自己，
抬头瞻望那些崇拜的对象。
与其举旗高呼崇拜
何时
粉丝会发现
自己虽有不足
可是也可以举旗高喊崇拜自己
偶尔偶尔
会发现自己的美
觉得自己其实很不错~
Tuesday 30 October 2012
Spill the tears, limbo, and rock again ;)
Call me narcissist. I am inspired. By... MYSELF ^^=
Wadded back through the streams of words produced in this blog.
Emotionally laden.
Something to be glad about...
Extremely avalanche-type of emotion with highest tendency to smother, submerge, and suffocate were expressed as creative writing.
Yes narcissist at work but wow! Supercalifragilisticexpialidociously amazed me :P
Well not just about the narcissistic part off course...
Noticed love is no absentee through deep and shallow waters.
I do have someone.
Though sometimes tears come into play to balance up the laughter with them ;) (*yin and yang i supposed :D)
One can always conclude a night with tears.
Pillow has generous enough cotton to absorb water :P
But there is choice. Choice between:
pillow wetting, swollen eyes and goofy look the next day, &
yes be emotional to the max, do the craziest thing, cry your eyes, heart, lung, brain out. when nothing is there, you start with nothing and fill in something the next day ;)
can i say i love myself ;))
i love me ^^ <3
Wadded back through the streams of words produced in this blog.
Emotionally laden.
Something to be glad about...
Extremely avalanche-type of emotion with highest tendency to smother, submerge, and suffocate were expressed as creative writing.
Yes narcissist at work but wow! Supercalifragilisticexpialidociously amazed me :P
Well not just about the narcissistic part off course...
Noticed love is no absentee through deep and shallow waters.
I do have someone.
Though sometimes tears come into play to balance up the laughter with them ;) (*yin and yang i supposed :D)
One can always conclude a night with tears.
Pillow has generous enough cotton to absorb water :P
But there is choice. Choice between:
pillow wetting, swollen eyes and goofy look the next day, &
yes be emotional to the max, do the craziest thing, cry your eyes, heart, lung, brain out. when nothing is there, you start with nothing and fill in something the next day ;)
can i say i love myself ;))
i love me ^^ <3
Sunday 5 August 2012
爱情故事
忘记从哪里看过这么一句话了。
“鸟儿飞不过沧海，不是因为鸟儿不勇敢，而是沧海那头，早已没有了等待”。
不爱也爱了。
在一起是个时时刻刻都撞击着蓝鱼的心的事实。而曾经在一起，也是个时时刻刻都在梦魇里重播又重播的事实。
情话太多，显得太嫩幼。毕竟自己早已逾越了青涩的年龄。
很实际地，却也很无奈地，翻看了那本快要另她呕吐的爱情故事本。是他和她的故事。
就是要这样地折磨自己吗？
蓝鱼怀疑，这到底是不是一种强逼症。
到最后的最后，是该为一件完全不应该伤脑筋，不关他的事的事情做个干脆的决定。
结果，这个决定就成了非常伤脑筋，非常与他有联系的决定。
摩摩增增了半年，到最后，才看清楚自己那一颗不堪的心。
如果去是为了挽留些什么，而不是自己心甘情愿的，那是不是正当上了农夫-守株待兔？
多久了。
沧海的水也循环多少遍了。
变的定律依旧。
看着鱼缸里游来游去的鱼儿，就是一直会想到那句什么鱼说，谁说，看不见谁的眼泪，住在心里的话。
也许，自己真的有那么一段时间住过他的心里。
女人的第六感。
也许，在那之后，他发现心里一直有住户，只是住户的心里，也有着住户。
女人的第六感。
真准。
看见他转话题来掩盖对住户在乎的程度，蓝鱼笑了。
笑自己笨。笑自己傻。笑自己是个全宇宙超级无敌特大白痴。
也只有这样的笨蛋，才会走到一把刀子前，对刀子说，你冷了吧？过来我这里御寒。
蓝鱼望着鱼缸里的泡泡，觉得就连泡泡也懂得人生观。
小小的泡泡聚啊聚，变成一个大水泡，然后消失了。
那，自己对他的爱是怎么样的呢？
还是，她其实始于欣赏终于爱？
就像，小小的感动聚啊聚，变成了大大的爱，然后。。就像现在这样，消失了。
可是自己呢？
蓝鱼又笑了。
自己原来一直闭气在鱼缸底很用力地吹着让他感动地泡泡。
但是泡泡们也很用力地被踹破。
衷心珍藏这爱情故事集的，也许只有她。
不为什么。女人的第六感。
不知道为什么，想起自己能够摆脱故实集的束缚这个想法很催好梦。
同样的一首曲子，播放了n遍时所得的感觉不可能还相同于刚听的时候那种感觉。
同样的一本故事集，看了好多好多遍，看得心力绞碎，梦魇连连。
何苦折磨自己？
人生很多的转戾点。
稍长的也只是赢于长度。
总有一天，路会直的，心会好的，伤会淡的。
“鸟儿飞不过沧海，不是因为鸟儿不勇敢，而是沧海那头，早已没有了等待”。
不爱也爱了。
在一起是个时时刻刻都撞击着蓝鱼的心的事实。而曾经在一起，也是个时时刻刻都在梦魇里重播又重播的事实。
情话太多，显得太嫩幼。毕竟自己早已逾越了青涩的年龄。
很实际地，却也很无奈地，翻看了那本快要另她呕吐的爱情故事本。是他和她的故事。
就是要这样地折磨自己吗？
蓝鱼怀疑，这到底是不是一种强逼症。
到最后的最后，是该为一件完全不应该伤脑筋，不关他的事的事情做个干脆的决定。
结果，这个决定就成了非常伤脑筋，非常与他有联系的决定。
摩摩增增了半年，到最后，才看清楚自己那一颗不堪的心。
如果去是为了挽留些什么，而不是自己心甘情愿的，那是不是正当上了农夫-守株待兔？
多久了。
沧海的水也循环多少遍了。
变的定律依旧。
看着鱼缸里游来游去的鱼儿，就是一直会想到那句什么鱼说，谁说，看不见谁的眼泪，住在心里的话。
也许，自己真的有那么一段时间住过他的心里。
女人的第六感。
也许，在那之后，他发现心里一直有住户，只是住户的心里，也有着住户。
女人的第六感。
真准。
看见他转话题来掩盖对住户在乎的程度，蓝鱼笑了。
笑自己笨。笑自己傻。笑自己是个全宇宙超级无敌特大白痴。
也只有这样的笨蛋，才会走到一把刀子前，对刀子说，你冷了吧？过来我这里御寒。
蓝鱼望着鱼缸里的泡泡，觉得就连泡泡也懂得人生观。
小小的泡泡聚啊聚，变成一个大水泡，然后消失了。
那，自己对他的爱是怎么样的呢？
还是，她其实始于欣赏终于爱？
就像，小小的感动聚啊聚，变成了大大的爱，然后。。就像现在这样，消失了。
可是自己呢？
蓝鱼又笑了。
自己原来一直闭气在鱼缸底很用力地吹着让他感动地泡泡。
但是泡泡们也很用力地被踹破。
衷心珍藏这爱情故事集的，也许只有她。
不为什么。女人的第六感。
不知道为什么，想起自己能够摆脱故实集的束缚这个想法很催好梦。
同样的一首曲子，播放了n遍时所得的感觉不可能还相同于刚听的时候那种感觉。
同样的一本故事集，看了好多好多遍，看得心力绞碎，梦魇连连。
何苦折磨自己？
人生很多的转戾点。
稍长的也只是赢于长度。
总有一天，路会直的，心会好的，伤会淡的。
Tuesday 5 June 2012
归零
今天才信誓旦旦地说，如果事情的结果是有负自己的期望的，那就归零吧！将期望，希望，归零。只要真心，诚心去做就好了。毕竟都是自己爱的，自己的选择。
很信誓旦旦－真的。朋友还答说何必这样？如果不成功，那就去找更好的事做。
其实，哪有可能归零？
零在哪里？
自己的心里，还是在别人那里？自己归零，剔除所有期望，可能吗？指望别人／外在给予自己所期望的，可能吗？从来的从来，能改变的，只有自己。一切都在自己。
或许自己不该说归零。
应该说，加油！
真的，加油^^大家都游说放弃，自己却怎么也不能把事情丢下不管，这是自己的选择，自己所爱，逼着自己不理，去讨厌，难道对事情会有帮助吗？
很信誓旦旦－真的。朋友还答说何必这样？如果不成功，那就去找更好的事做。
其实，哪有可能归零？
零在哪里？
自己的心里，还是在别人那里？自己归零，剔除所有期望，可能吗？指望别人／外在给予自己所期望的，可能吗？从来的从来，能改变的，只有自己。一切都在自己。
或许自己不该说归零。
应该说，加油！
真的，加油^^大家都游说放弃，自己却怎么也不能把事情丢下不管，这是自己的选择，自己所爱，逼着自己不理，去讨厌，难道对事情会有帮助吗？
Saturday 12 May 2012
麻烦制造专家
Hyun A's trouble maker- awesome ^^
Cant stop letting the hooking beats drumming my ears :) total addiction ^^
Awesome song, and nicely arranged dance- though most dance parts were led by Beast member :)
Trouble maker ^^~
Cant stop letting the hooking beats drumming my ears :) total addiction ^^
Awesome song, and nicely arranged dance- though most dance parts were led by Beast member :)
Trouble maker ^^~
Friday 4 May 2012
With love
friends who stay with you, through thick and thin. what do you say about that?
dedicate this lovely post to two dears, whom i do not know how should i address them.
JY drove 30 minutes all the way before pulled up nicely at side gate.
看到他的第一眼，哭不出来了。
我怎么觉得这个朋友明明是很开朗，但硬要跟emo这个字眼纠缠不清。
有那么一刹，不知道自己在难过什么了。
也许，难过的是，是非对错很模糊。
心的跳动，竟然是因为如傀儡般地被无形的线牵着，而线的另一头，早已没有了方向。
I'd always believe things happen for a reason, a purpose.
如果经过很多很多眼泪的洗涤后，可以将事物看得更清楚，很值得。
缘分很妙。真的，很妙。
五年前到五年后。
之间的转变，事情的经过。现在回想起来仿佛是在看着旧照片。
你说了一句令人深省的话：朋友是什么？有利用价值的就是朋友，没有事的时候就九霄云外，当云的邻居。
其实说的很中肯。
很多时候，人一旦被排山倒海的情感埋没，剩下的，真的就是空壳。
所以，如果我发出叮铃铃的声音，真的很对不起。
Whatever happened and you've done, I wanna say, I am still in there- though incapable of feeling much, but sensations are still working :) Thank you for everything.
LC陪了我一个晚上。
我们去吃了好吃的fettucini ，然后聊了一个晚上。
你有直视恐惧的双眼吗？她问。
我说我看了。也作出补救的功夫。但是无济于事。
可是真的谢谢你跟我说，朋友的定义就是，在一起舒服，开心就好了。
彼此之间，真的不需要太多的定义，尤其一定要告诉对方自己的秘密。
对啊。
人与人之间的感情，所交换的物质，科学化后，发展出了公式，许多辅导模式。
有多少的烦恼，是来自于感情？
情到深处，为什么会伤？是期待在捣蛋吗？
谢谢你的陪伴亲爱的^^It is the quality that counts- as a matter of fact, both the companionship, and conversation <3
With sincere love ^^
Happy Wesak Day :)
dedicate this lovely post to two dears, whom i do not know how should i address them.
JY drove 30 minutes all the way before pulled up nicely at side gate.
看到他的第一眼，哭不出来了。
我怎么觉得这个朋友明明是很开朗，但硬要跟emo这个字眼纠缠不清。
有那么一刹，不知道自己在难过什么了。
也许，难过的是，是非对错很模糊。
心的跳动，竟然是因为如傀儡般地被无形的线牵着，而线的另一头，早已没有了方向。
I'd always believe things happen for a reason, a purpose.
如果经过很多很多眼泪的洗涤后，可以将事物看得更清楚，很值得。
缘分很妙。真的，很妙。
五年前到五年后。
之间的转变，事情的经过。现在回想起来仿佛是在看着旧照片。
你说了一句令人深省的话：朋友是什么？有利用价值的就是朋友，没有事的时候就九霄云外，当云的邻居。
其实说的很中肯。
很多时候，人一旦被排山倒海的情感埋没，剩下的，真的就是空壳。
所以，如果我发出叮铃铃的声音，真的很对不起。
Whatever happened and you've done, I wanna say, I am still in there- though incapable of feeling much, but sensations are still working :) Thank you for everything.
LC陪了我一个晚上。
我们去吃了好吃的fettucini ，然后聊了一个晚上。
你有直视恐惧的双眼吗？她问。
我说我看了。也作出补救的功夫。但是无济于事。
可是真的谢谢你跟我说，朋友的定义就是，在一起舒服，开心就好了。
彼此之间，真的不需要太多的定义，尤其一定要告诉对方自己的秘密。
对啊。
人与人之间的感情，所交换的物质，科学化后，发展出了公式，许多辅导模式。
有多少的烦恼，是来自于感情？
情到深处，为什么会伤？是期待在捣蛋吗？
谢谢你的陪伴亲爱的^^It is the quality that counts- as a matter of fact, both the companionship, and conversation <3
With sincere love ^^
Happy Wesak Day :)
Monday 9 April 2012
on my way ^^
跟自己说：论文，是一次能够让自己知识apply到以前觉得很无助的地方
当临教时，那种看到孩子们放弃，觉得读书没有希望，自己远不比上人家时的心痛，要铭记。
分班对已经努力但仍无所改变的学生们的无助，无奈。
老师承诺过，会用心理学的知识去帮助需要的。
希望，这次的research，老师真的能以很微弱的文章，引发教育者及从政教育人士的一些思考~
当临教时，那种看到孩子们放弃，觉得读书没有希望，自己远不比上人家时的心痛，要铭记。
分班对已经努力但仍无所改变的学生们的无助，无奈。
老师承诺过，会用心理学的知识去帮助需要的。
希望，这次的research，老师真的能以很微弱的文章，引发教育者及从政教育人士的一些思考~
Friday 6 April 2012
Cant remember the days of burning the midnight oil- precisely, exhausting my table lamp, squeezing brain juice, screwed up the detoxification systems, dropping torpedoes nicely to the already volatile mood, striving to nurture panda's eyes...being nocturnal preying over thesis, these are the symptoms of kissing my beauty sleepy goodbye -.-
And yes. Cranky ideas led to several hops, before the final topic was decided.
How I miss my Delta waves~
But decided to hold tight to beta waves' tail- when I met with food of the day :) Insulin had been on long vacations ever since the first week of 3rd year :P
And yes. Cranky ideas led to several hops, before the final topic was decided.
How I miss my Delta waves~
But decided to hold tight to beta waves' tail- when I met with food of the day :) Insulin had been on long vacations ever since the first week of 3rd year :P
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| The Mango Season- Amulya Malladi :) a must-grab <3 |
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| A good book , a nice pot of soup- made my day ^^ |
A book on how a US acculturated girl from India, highest social class, Telugu Brahmin persisted and endured with the struggles of her love for an American, whereby arranged marriage fixed the norm of establishing household, and even love in India.
选择从图书馆的每月推举书架上借这本书，是因为它的题目。
芒果的季节-the mango season
勾起了记忆里，那个很喜欢芒果的男孩。
也许是冥冥中的注定。
书里说的，是异族的恋爱。
当爱情与亲情起了冲突，爱情并没有接收到亲情的祝福。
当然。书中几次提到，x时代y时代的想法可以是一线之差，亦可以是天渊之别。
当家人不明白自己对伴侣的选择，的爱，恼羞成怒的，是双方。
毕竟大家都要大家将就自己的期望。
书中让我欣赏的，是女主人公的那种气质，坚持，跟individuality
在collectivistic 的社会，要不随波逐流，淡淡地发出自己味道是很挑战的。
父母的爱，不管如何压迫，或是让我们深感不公。每个人的内心深处，其实都很渴望父母的爱。
情，乃是人生中的一门大学问啊。
难怪很多辅导的理论都建立于情上-亲情，友情，爱情，诗会情，人与人之间有的那份情。
感触很多。女主人公最后跟爱人修成正果。
但是在现实社会，又上演着多少齣罗密欧与朱丽叶呢？
Thursday 5 April 2012
毕业焦虑症
距离毕业是一年的时间。
忙得焦头烂额的，是论文，期间得兼顾的四科-领导学，历史心理学，学习障碍，行为理解与改变。
八月快到了。实践，写论文。
这期间，不断问自己，到底三年的意义是什么。
不错。学年的总评分总是有办法在自己脸上画上如蝙蝠侠里小丑的那个笑容-大大宽宽的。
但是，这样的笑容，到底是什么。
虽说快乐对心理，生理健康很重要，但这样的笑容，对需要帮助的人群，有何奏效？
如何将这份对心理学的喜悦分享给被帮助的人？
虽然，投身心理学并没有让自己成为万中无一的万能，至少，当心理的痛，痛翻天的时候，三年的知识，能派上用场。
看了on call 36，就越发对自己的学识焦虑。
毕竟，人不是考场卷纸，是不可能让我们把学到的东西，regurgitate 到他们身上。
这领域，有很多的未知数。操纵性变数，更是等着research 来证明它们的存在。
佛家说，不要抱紧任何东西，因为最终，你会发现抱得太紧的，都是枷锁，一圈又一圈地拴在自己身上。
可是，我只是很想，很想抱紧我这三年的学识，然后投身于相关领域，分享这种被学识拴得动弹不得的bitter sweet.
不能说前路茫茫。
自己也茫了，怎么去帮助别人？
欲齐其家，先修其身。
我觉得，现在自己最应该的，是先修其心，其定力，其修唯。
Tuesday 3 April 2012
Withdrawal - hormone's play
Came across drug abuse before, and know how addiction sets its path implicated in several hormonal pathways.
Cells are so used to being fed the hormones elicited by the drug, and with the absence of drug, cells are left starving, craving for the similar hormone.
Have not encountered in real life, a person in withdrawal state.
Excruciating, inexplicable pain is often the thing being portrayed in movies- crying, spasms, wanting the drug even though it means chronic death.
Hormones.
It is about hormones, and cell's craving for them.
Cells are so used to being fed the hormones elicited by the drug, and with the absence of drug, cells are left starving, craving for the similar hormone.
Have not encountered in real life, a person in withdrawal state.
Excruciating, inexplicable pain is often the thing being portrayed in movies- crying, spasms, wanting the drug even though it means chronic death.
Hormones.
It is about hormones, and cell's craving for them.
Friday 30 March 2012
红绿灯
人生的路，好像交通灯。
红灯的时候，我们总以为，自己完蛋了，走不动了。
绿灯的时候，我们总以为，自己方向很对，只要向前冲，就对了。
但是红灯会有转绿灯的时候。
而绿灯，也有转红等的时候。
这，就是事到盛时多谨慎，
境到逆处仍从容。
只要告诉自己，人生有好多好多地红灯，但是没有一台车子是永远地在路上停顿着不前进的。
毕竟，没有永远地红灯，但也没有永远地绿灯。
加油 :)
红灯的时候，我们总以为，自己完蛋了，走不动了。
绿灯的时候，我们总以为，自己方向很对，只要向前冲，就对了。
但是红灯会有转绿灯的时候。
而绿灯，也有转红等的时候。
这，就是事到盛时多谨慎，
境到逆处仍从容。
只要告诉自己，人生有好多好多地红灯，但是没有一台车子是永远地在路上停顿着不前进的。
毕竟，没有永远地红灯，但也没有永远地绿灯。
加油 :)
Monday 26 March 2012
不哭
起初 相信爱的路
终点是指向幸福
才会一而再的选择让步
太固执而盲目 忘了停下来
心疼自己的无助
无辜 你拿手演出
终于我可以麻木
从这里分割出两个国度
挥霍多少时间 折磨多少痛苦
才累积出的领悟
忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭
望向天空不让眼泪流出
抬头看进云深处
等待那日出 把故事结束
把从前一笔 消除
忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭
不能认输因为我相信
彩虹总跟着薄雾
会带来幸福 在下一个叉路
陪我跳全新的舞
Sunday 25 March 2012
心理学足迹
稍微看了历史心理学。
它就像一个被孕育的孩子，成长至今。
也看了这学期的功课。
得选一个理论-从胚胎到而今的成长历史，当然也要包括近况。
突然间有种 on call 36 医生们选主修的时候。
好多好多的理论。
自己一直都很喜欢弗洛伊德的无意识论。
社会心理学也提倡了许多自己喜爱的理论。
明天得请示教授到底题目是否限于课本内的题目。
抽象啊抽象~
爱爱爱~
第三年咯~
自己，也长大了~
Sunday 18 March 2012
:( ? X [ :) :D XD ^^]
总是。。一而再地，对自己最亲近的人好苛刻。
苛刻到。。心，在说着严苛的话语时，好用力，好用力地敲了很多次。
咚咚作响。
昨天刚到家，就被日理万机的叔叔，还有明天就开学的表堂兄们约出来，请我吃饭，逗我笑。
他们是真的，在用自己的方式，很关心自己~
刚从牙科出来，一副被判死刑的心情，在乱岗的思绪。
两年前手术取出歪长的智慧牙，那种痛彻心扉的痛，让自己对“拔智慧牙”有了不一样的见解。
怎么这回，还是没有好好地长呢？
突然很傻气地想起王心凌的睫毛弯弯-自己却是智慧牙歪歪 :(
想哭。
看过x-ray后，真的，想哭。
从牙医那里出来后，告诉了陪我一块儿的公公-起早贪黑地陪着我- 要知道，昨天晚上，他还一直不敢睡，等我跟叔叔姑姑们吃完晚餐，然后洗澡，还忧心仲仲地跟我说，别直接在洗完澡过后躺下，会着凉。
之后想到的人，是姑姑。
爱开玩笑，却又很疼我的姑姑。
发了信息过去，她还是开玩笑的语气，但是内容却让我很想哭: 你不要吓我！你要什么？钱和人都可以借给你！
姑姑在上课，也不想吓着她。
结果，拨了电话给尧尧。
尧尧刚睡醒，朦朦胧胧地声音 :D 虽然听起来让人忍俊不禁，可说着说着，到最后，还是哭了。
本来是为智慧齿哀悼，结果聊得很长远，笑了好多，也被告知，第一次的疼痛，到了第二次，就会减半~
想想，似乎，也有道理哦。就好像，如果有一次的经验，那第二次，就事半功倍了~^^
今天就是。。乱糟糟的。
可是似乎觉得，好久好久不曾动容的心，似乎不是因为跳动而跳动了。
谢谢公公，谢谢婆婆，谢谢叔叔阿姨跟堂兄们，还有姑姑姑丈跟表兄们，当然还有尧尧~
从乱糟糟的思绪里理清一个所以然来，似乎，不错 :)
苛刻到。。心，在说着严苛的话语时，好用力，好用力地敲了很多次。
咚咚作响。
昨天刚到家，就被日理万机的叔叔，还有明天就开学的表堂兄们约出来，请我吃饭，逗我笑。
他们是真的，在用自己的方式，很关心自己~
刚从牙科出来，一副被判死刑的心情，在乱岗的思绪。
两年前手术取出歪长的智慧牙，那种痛彻心扉的痛，让自己对“拔智慧牙”有了不一样的见解。
怎么这回，还是没有好好地长呢？
突然很傻气地想起王心凌的睫毛弯弯-自己却是智慧牙歪歪 :(
想哭。
看过x-ray后，真的，想哭。
从牙医那里出来后，告诉了陪我一块儿的公公-起早贪黑地陪着我- 要知道，昨天晚上，他还一直不敢睡，等我跟叔叔姑姑们吃完晚餐，然后洗澡，还忧心仲仲地跟我说，别直接在洗完澡过后躺下，会着凉。
之后想到的人，是姑姑。
爱开玩笑，却又很疼我的姑姑。
发了信息过去，她还是开玩笑的语气，但是内容却让我很想哭: 你不要吓我！你要什么？钱和人都可以借给你！
姑姑在上课，也不想吓着她。
结果，拨了电话给尧尧。
尧尧刚睡醒，朦朦胧胧地声音 :D 虽然听起来让人忍俊不禁，可说着说着，到最后，还是哭了。
本来是为智慧齿哀悼，结果聊得很长远，笑了好多，也被告知，第一次的疼痛，到了第二次，就会减半~
想想，似乎，也有道理哦。就好像，如果有一次的经验，那第二次，就事半功倍了~^^
今天就是。。乱糟糟的。
可是似乎觉得，好久好久不曾动容的心，似乎不是因为跳动而跳动了。
谢谢公公，谢谢婆婆，谢谢叔叔阿姨跟堂兄们，还有姑姑姑丈跟表兄们，当然还有尧尧~
从乱糟糟的思绪里理清一个所以然来，似乎，不错 :)
Thursday 15 March 2012
Ray of Happiness^^~ 12 March, 2012 :)
It has been 3 years- for the last time we met was before my degree had even kicked start, and off course, the Korea trip ^^
I am glad at least, to hotmail you and told you 'bout the trip :D or else ;) (you know where this leads to :D )
Had a nice meal in some Taiwan shop, with nice food, and off course, most importantly, the companion ^^
Then headed all the way to the city of light in Shah Alam ^^ <3
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| Icity- いらっしゃいませ ^^ !! |
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| Tada~~~ *drum rolls* ^^~*Panaromic view <3* |
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| 尧尧said this area looks like winter sonata^^ |
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| See the railway above? Both of us hopped on one little car, with 10rm for one, while letting the little car toured us around the winter-sonata-liked area :D anxious (coz there is this feeling of you on the verge of jerking out from the little car), yet overjoyed as you can choose music to be played in the little car ^^ 当然就是一人在上，万人在下的感觉~五彩缤纷的灯，亮亮地，也暖暖地~ |
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| Picture speaks the best ^^ |
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| Reminds me of 2010 Chrismas in Korea^^ |
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| Snow-liked feel~ <3 Yen was totally into winter mood :D |
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| No adjectives (*at least in my Wernicke :D) is enough to describe this beauty^^ |
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| What else can I say^^? Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious :D <3 |
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Double decked Merry-go-round^^ 最爱的旋转木马－两层的哦
坐上第二层，随着木马的起落，心情，却是很明显地在飞扬着^^
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| **courtesy of 尧尧* 谢谢苹果4把我拍得美美的^^ as the lights in merry-go-round keep changing, he had to snap as many pics as possible :D (coz somebody looked like a ghost :P thanks to the reflection of green light ><) |
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| *Courtesy of 尧尧* while in the merry-go-round ^^ |
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| Beautiful flamingos^^ |
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| Ferris wheel~^^ It has been our topic of conversation even right before we arrived there :D |
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| Yen: do lets do lets!!! (super excited) 尧尧：like i am going out with a kid -.-ll ....... (5 seconds after everyone settled in the gondola) Yen: squeak! i am scared! this is high! |
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Escalating Ferris wheel- but sweaty palms and foot @-@
尧尧 was sitting opposite, taking pictures , enjoying the view is just the word for him, while somebody was being scared the daylight out of :'( nonetheless i love it ^^ not too fast, and eventually got to realize, it is just the thought that was scary - no more than that :D
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| 1st time seeing such a beautiful Oldtown :D |
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| People selling illuminated stuffs everywhere^^ We both bought illuminating blue and pink-colored Mickey mouse hair band, and wearing them ever since :D Happy coz this was 1st time for 尧尧, and i'm sure he enjoyed it as much as i do :) |
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| Seal the post with camwhoring in front of big Christmas tree^^ |
Thousands of thanks to 尧尧 who drove all the way to Shah Alam^^
It was a very nice experience, and had the greatest fun with breathtaking lights, favorite merry-go-round, long anticipated Ferris Wheel, and off course, the mickey mouse ears :D
The best part is off course, a companion who shares his life on composing music and bout his major on computer science^^
Have to say, apart from having a good day, I learned something too on composing music and computer science :)
酝酿酝酿下回的meeting 咯~看看要到那里趴趴走透透 ^^
酝酿酝酿下回的meeting 咯~看看要到那里趴趴走透透 ^^
Hawtt day ^^
Woke up 4am early in the morning in order to get to Putra Jaya in time for the hot air balloon event :)
Adrenaline whooshing all over as I have never seen a real hot air balloon before. Lee So Young's "Grace" MV definitely had a nice way of portraying the hot air balloon <3
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| Time limit, people limit- glad to sacrifice sweet bed time for being one of the earliest 300- on the very first day of the competition itself! |
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| Still early and the hot air balloon was lying flat on the ground- Preparation under process :) 24 was the basket to carry us up~ |
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| Blimp carrying the word Putra Jaya- but from this view, looked like atomic bomb @-@ |
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| Giant cake! Didnt manage to get which country it represented... |
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| Colorful~^^ |
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| Creatively designed parrot hot air balloon- US; but having some physics discussion: how does the Bernoulli principle work here? ;) hmmm~~ |
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| Waiting patiently for our turn to be on either one of the colorful hot air balloons (*initial thought) |
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| (*moments later...) apparently the colorful mosaic-liked hot air balloon rose up slower and steadier, stayed on the sky for longer time, and also deescalated steadily rather than a heavy thud (the one we rode on) |
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| Breathtaking <3 ^^ |
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| Fire burning...in the balloon (not on the dance floor :D) the fire was hot :P got shocked slightly by the sudden puffing sound :D
Visually and experience-ly satisfied and drove home at 11+am, had nice Japanese lunch with peeps, and discussion on August trip!
*Our funny lil' Takos and Kani :D
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A fruitful day ^^
Seal the day with gracier ^^ <3
Monday 12 March 2012
Rays of Happiness ^^
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| Tada~~~ *drum rolls* ^^~*Panaromic view <3* |
It has been 3 years- for the last time we met was before my degree had even kicked start, and off course, the Korea trip ^^
I am glad at least, to hotmail you and told you 'bout the trip :D or else ;) (you know where this leads to :D )
Had a nice meal in some Taiwan shop, with nice food, and off course, most importantly, the companion ^^
Then headed all the way to the city of light in Shah Alam ^^ <3
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| Double decked Merry-go-round^^ 最爱的旋转木马－两层的哦 坐上第二层，随着木马的起落，心情，却是很明显地在飞扬着^^ |
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| Big chrismas tree but full view compromised by camwhoring :P anyhow had fun comparing camwhoring skills with 尧尧 (iphone 4 owner !)- mine cyber shot of sony ericsson muakaka :D |
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| No adjectives (*at least in my Wernicke :D) is enough to describe this beauty^^ |
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| Icity- いらっしゃいませ ^^ !! |
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| Escalating Ferris wheel- but sweaty palms and foot @-@ 尧尧 was like taking pictures opposite, enjoying the view is just the word for him, while somebody was being scared the daylight out of :'( nonetheless i love it ^^ not too fast, and eventually got to realize, it is just the thought that was scary - no more than that :D |
Sunday 4 March 2012
Wednesday 8 February 2012
Learning, Leaning
once read an article in psychological testing class, saying that cultural differences exist not merely across nations, clans/tribes. often people dispels the minute cultural differences between individuals.
yes, recognized, acknowledged, endorsed.
bounded to my culture, would say my expectation for my own learning is, to learn, to fill in the interest void about psychology, to understand how different concepts work, and to put factual into practice.
marks are important, as they secure my scholarship.
but the principal of self-reflection and never beg for marks desperately, has been my principle ever since higher secondary 1.
i am not asking for addition.
i am not challenging for subtraction.
i am just wanting a definition for learning.
learning is self-pace, self-regulated, and i follow my expectations, and i presume the end goal of my expectation synchronizes with those of the content deliverer.
i do not get upset if i get low marks, at myself, yes. the value of always self-reflect has taught me to look at the mistakes and reasons for low marks.
but i do get upset when expectations are imposed on me, and i am expected to bend my pre-established principles to adhere to it.
i am not even trying to scream.
i am just like any students, lost, and searching for way, seeking for guidance, wanting to know how is learning being defined so that i could ADAPT and assimilate into the expectation, not absolute submission.
i value understanding, i value what is being put into practice, i value how much you know about your major after years of studying, and exams merely as a stage for you to demonstrate, to perform what you know, what you learned.
it is never leaning against the chair, looking straight ahead to the text material, and guzzle streams and streams of information from the book, regurgitate, and feel pleased with the 100%
this is not gonna happened after graduation.
life is not a memory race.
memory is an aid for us in life, but it itself, is not the ending, and therefore, not something we should always prioritize in learning.
learning is to go forward in life's marathon, derive meaning from it, and enjoy the process.
fighting :(
yes, recognized, acknowledged, endorsed.
bounded to my culture, would say my expectation for my own learning is, to learn, to fill in the interest void about psychology, to understand how different concepts work, and to put factual into practice.
marks are important, as they secure my scholarship.
but the principal of self-reflection and never beg for marks desperately, has been my principle ever since higher secondary 1.
i am not asking for addition.
i am not challenging for subtraction.
i am just wanting a definition for learning.
learning is self-pace, self-regulated, and i follow my expectations, and i presume the end goal of my expectation synchronizes with those of the content deliverer.
i do not get upset if i get low marks, at myself, yes. the value of always self-reflect has taught me to look at the mistakes and reasons for low marks.
but i do get upset when expectations are imposed on me, and i am expected to bend my pre-established principles to adhere to it.
i am not even trying to scream.
i am just like any students, lost, and searching for way, seeking for guidance, wanting to know how is learning being defined so that i could ADAPT and assimilate into the expectation, not absolute submission.
i value understanding, i value what is being put into practice, i value how much you know about your major after years of studying, and exams merely as a stage for you to demonstrate, to perform what you know, what you learned.
it is never leaning against the chair, looking straight ahead to the text material, and guzzle streams and streams of information from the book, regurgitate, and feel pleased with the 100%
this is not gonna happened after graduation.
life is not a memory race.
memory is an aid for us in life, but it itself, is not the ending, and therefore, not something we should always prioritize in learning.
learning is to go forward in life's marathon, derive meaning from it, and enjoy the process.
fighting :(
Monday 30 January 2012
Wednesday 18 January 2012
Daddy called for 2 consecutive days.
For the first time, I merajuk because it was not the right time yet.
Then he called for the second time and sent the earliest, fresh birthday wish <3
Thank you daddy :)
Cant remember how many years went on without having the chance to call for wishing you happy birthday and happy father's day :)
When I was young, I drew cards, made gifts, bought note pads, oreo for you and mommy.
I didnt recognize the meaning back then. I just want you and mommy to feel happy.
Thanks daddy^^
You have always been a sport, a pillar, my psychologist, my mentor, my everything :)
Thank you- daddy and mommy, for bringing me into this world :)
I stumbled and fumbled.
And thank Buddha I came to a path that helps me recognize, no matter what happens, your love for me is always there, no matter what happens ^^
Love you dad^^
Love you mom^^
You guys are the best parents i could ever ask for :)
Like Morrie said, love conquers all ~ no matter what happens, love, conquers all :)
For the first time, I merajuk because it was not the right time yet.
Then he called for the second time and sent the earliest, fresh birthday wish <3
Thank you daddy :)
Cant remember how many years went on without having the chance to call for wishing you happy birthday and happy father's day :)
When I was young, I drew cards, made gifts, bought note pads, oreo for you and mommy.
I didnt recognize the meaning back then. I just want you and mommy to feel happy.
Thanks daddy^^
You have always been a sport, a pillar, my psychologist, my mentor, my everything :)
Thank you- daddy and mommy, for bringing me into this world :)
I stumbled and fumbled.
And thank Buddha I came to a path that helps me recognize, no matter what happens, your love for me is always there, no matter what happens ^^
Love you dad^^
Love you mom^^
You guys are the best parents i could ever ask for :)
Like Morrie said, love conquers all ~ no matter what happens, love, conquers all :)
18 january^^
is gonna be pretty hectic today, yet went out and "froze"- if chilling off is like mild case ;)
however decided to blog about today ^^
was half dead- of course, wall e always has a belief: if you are late for class and you rush, there gone for the day.
might miss breakfast, nice shower, leave things behind, sit in the class hot and bothered, rapid heartbeat yet not due to adrenaline rush but a sign of exhaustion...
that was what happened this morning.
the lazed-for-a-while became opening eyes slowly, thinking confidently it was 10+ in the morning ended up 11+, thereby the rush, missed theme day, sat at the LAST row in class, couldnt really see what was on the slides, confused, and mood was fluctuating ><
but things turned out so nice in the evening^^
cousie asked me out for dinner in sushi king, and knowing i was running out of money, she generously offered to belanja me, and even a nice ice-cream like dessert in honeymoon~^^ <3
on the way to grab mocha met classmates walking around with two big signs hanging on their necks: today is my 21st birthday, please give me 50cents XD
omb!! so sporting of them <3 i love seeing them sporting and laughing and funny around^^
this is so university life <3 sorry i didnt turn up dear JunLi and Sharon- both january babies^^
wallet was going on diet instead of me :p
have a nice evening today^^
thanks so much to my cousin and coursemates^^
really love you guys :)
and now, of to nerd ;)
sealed, with huggies and gratitude ~ <3 ^^
however decided to blog about today ^^
was half dead- of course, wall e always has a belief: if you are late for class and you rush, there gone for the day.
might miss breakfast, nice shower, leave things behind, sit in the class hot and bothered, rapid heartbeat yet not due to adrenaline rush but a sign of exhaustion...
that was what happened this morning.
the lazed-for-a-while became opening eyes slowly, thinking confidently it was 10+ in the morning ended up 11+, thereby the rush, missed theme day, sat at the LAST row in class, couldnt really see what was on the slides, confused, and mood was fluctuating ><
but things turned out so nice in the evening^^
cousie asked me out for dinner in sushi king, and knowing i was running out of money, she generously offered to belanja me, and even a nice ice-cream like dessert in honeymoon~^^ <3
on the way to grab mocha met classmates walking around with two big signs hanging on their necks: today is my 21st birthday, please give me 50cents XD
omb!! so sporting of them <3 i love seeing them sporting and laughing and funny around^^
this is so university life <3 sorry i didnt turn up dear JunLi and Sharon- both january babies^^
wallet was going on diet instead of me :p
have a nice evening today^^
thanks so much to my cousin and coursemates^^
really love you guys :)
and now, of to nerd ;)
sealed, with huggies and gratitude ~ <3 ^^
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