rebirth

somehow had a feeling that people who are trying to walk out from a developmental crisis, this is their most vulnerable state, yet blessing- coz this is the chance for them to repaint their life portrait.

phoenix- death, and rebirth.
there is always dying before birth.
heart dies, but experience grows.

it is the cycle of life.
take it, or suffer from resistance.

纯粹一种因神经元而起的感觉，


加一点点的想法, 


再回忆一点点的记忆，


再加上一首很伤感的歌，


再加一幅快乐里挑伤感的眼镜


- 痛，不过如此。


难怪蔡澜说年轻人总喜欢庸人自忧。


想起来，这种添加，应该用在research 里，而不是elaborate神经元的function~

spell P-A-I-N, P-A-I-N-T

painful- a feeling, a type of sensation that is perceived as uncomfortable, upsetting- functional wise it serves its purpose of forewarning an impending danger. But when wounds are imprinted, that is when the sensation is nagging, attention-seeking.

it is weird enough to have people avoiding pain as much as they could, yet obsessed about the pain and compulsively avoid the pain by visiting them, again and again, with the purpose of systemic desensitization?
will constant revisit of pain and painting out the painful episodes help in numbing a person towards pain?

surprise how complement pain and paint are- there is therapy requiring client to paint out their feelings, thoughts- what they paint also include their pain. catharsis, a better way for entering the client's world.
but what if individual becomes her own painful episode's van gogh, painting one after another, revisiting them again and again, hoping systemic desensitization would work.
yet undeniably it is better than sitting down brooding over the pain, enlarge the pain, and paralyzed by the pain.
painting the pain, is torturous while painting, is murderous while revisiting, is the surge of on-the-verge-of-getting-insane feeling while recalling and submerged in details, but after some time, it will be out of the league of sensation. sensation no more, perception no more. it is just, paintings that are hung on the life's museum, occasionally go there and appreciate our once upon a time artistic skills.  

brain DRAINED

brain is soo on fire due to excess neural firings @@

as long as cant find a perfect way to help, i just wont stop- not because i wanna rescue, but as a human, i want to help another being stepping on the fine line, between life, and death. 

一个机会的评价

每个人都应该被给一个公平的机会去证明自己。

如果带着有色的眼光去评价，那学到的事情就很少了。

Bunny

bunny头歪歪地，急坏了人。大家都不知道为什么。

云姐姐知道－是bunny告诉她的。
因为．．．
我是很乖的bunny，所以，
天使姐姐为我带了个光圈，重重的，所以，头，就歪歪了。

可是我却急坏了妈妈，让她为我团团转。
我知道她很爱我，起早贪黑地为我早餐，固定观察我的状况。
所以我告诉天使姐姐，如果当了天使，我一定要在天堂上，一直看着妈妈，一直守护妈妈～

妈妈，不哭了～
其实你能多睡一会儿，不用为了我操心，我真的很开心～

妈妈，我没有走哦～
我一直都在你的心里^^

With lots of love ~

goodbye to the old layout ^^

啃肯～

心血来潮，买了toblerone 来啃。

好友们都知道，我是啃巧克力大王－当大家都说好甜的时候，我的，已经啃光了。

我就是一个那么爱甜的人，明明知道凡事不可过火，但是还是津津有味地依偎在甜甜的怀抱里～

今天，破天荒地，我竟然对巧克力腻了。

一根toblerone，啃得我心慌慌，到最后竟然有种快要生病的感觉　><

所以凡事量腹而食，度身而衣，不无道理。

人，就是不行每件事都想甜甜地过。

甜到尽头全是腻，蛀牙伤身。

人生亦是如此。太甜则不切实际，不甜则皱眉忧郁。

涩涩甜甜的～好甘甜的人生～^^

人生

我们来办家家酒-你是悲伤，他是快乐。两杯参杂喝下- 好纯的人生~


今天，嘴巴破皮了，就以为是冷气太冷了所以嘴唇裂开了。
没想到竟然是免疫力低，肿起来-一个大泡泡-疼~


疼，似乎已经到了麻木的地步。
好像在哪里看到说，摔倒的次数直达麻木时，还站起来，就代表你根本没有被击倒过-如果感觉击倒，那也是脑播放的影像-如果无动于衷，那就变成了假象。


今天，太疼了。
世事本质即是变-没有永恒的道理。
看通了，就不执着，那，也就没有痛了。


几米说过，感谢伤痛让我更灵敏。


也对-不痛不痒的人生，就算有很多快乐-也无从可比，所以，又怎么懂得快乐呢？

痛过哭过后，就站起来。光坐着伤口会会因为坐着的压力而更伤更痛。


站起来，可以选择敷药，选择去疤，选择以后该怎么样才不会再痛。


所以，站起来，即使再痛，也不比失去希望坐着等死痛～　加油^^