once read an article in psychological testing class, saying that cultural differences exist not merely across nations, clans/tribes. often people dispels the minute cultural differences between individuals.
yes, recognized, acknowledged, endorsed.
bounded to my culture, would say my expectation for my own learning is, to learn, to fill in the interest void about psychology, to understand how different concepts work, and to put factual into practice.
marks are important, as they secure my scholarship.
but the principal of self-reflection and never beg for marks desperately, has been my principle ever since higher secondary 1.
i am not asking for addition.
i am not challenging for subtraction.
i am just wanting a definition for learning.
learning is self-pace, self-regulated, and i follow my expectations, and i presume the end goal of my expectation synchronizes with those of the content deliverer.
i do not get upset if i get low marks, at myself, yes. the value of always self-reflect has taught me to look at the mistakes and reasons for low marks.
but i do get upset when expectations are imposed on me, and i am expected to bend my pre-established principles to adhere to it.
i am not even trying to scream.
i am just like any students, lost, and searching for way, seeking for guidance, wanting to know how is learning being defined so that i could ADAPT and assimilate into the expectation, not absolute submission.
i value understanding, i value what is being put into practice, i value how much you know about your major after years of studying, and exams merely as a stage for you to demonstrate, to perform what you know, what you learned.
it is never leaning against the chair, looking straight ahead to the text material, and guzzle streams and streams of information from the book, regurgitate, and feel pleased with the 100%
this is not gonna happened after graduation.
life is not a memory race.
memory is an aid for us in life, but it itself, is not the ending, and therefore, not something we should always prioritize in learning.
learning is to go forward in life's marathon, derive meaning from it, and enjoy the process.
fighting :(
