纯粹一种因神经元而起的感觉，


加一点点的想法, 


再回忆一点点的记忆，


再加上一首很伤感的歌，


再加一幅快乐里挑伤感的眼镜


- 痛，不过如此。


难怪蔡澜说年轻人总喜欢庸人自忧。


想起来，这种添加，应该用在research 里，而不是elaborate神经元的function~

spell P-A-I-N, P-A-I-N-T

painful- a feeling, a type of sensation that is perceived as uncomfortable, upsetting- functional wise it serves its purpose of forewarning an impending danger. But when wounds are imprinted, that is when the sensation is nagging, attention-seeking.

it is weird enough to have people avoiding pain as much as they could, yet obsessed about the pain and compulsively avoid the pain by visiting them, again and again, with the purpose of systemic desensitization?
will constant revisit of pain and painting out the painful episodes help in numbing a person towards pain?

surprise how complement pain and paint are- there is therapy requiring client to paint out their feelings, thoughts- what they paint also include their pain. catharsis, a better way for entering the client's world.
but what if individual becomes her own painful episode's van gogh, painting one after another, revisiting them again and again, hoping systemic desensitization would work.
yet undeniably it is better than sitting down brooding over the pain, enlarge the pain, and paralyzed by the pain.
painting the pain, is torturous while painting, is murderous while revisiting, is the surge of on-the-verge-of-getting-insane feeling while recalling and submerged in details, but after some time, it will be out of the league of sensation. sensation no more, perception no more. it is just, paintings that are hung on the life's museum, occasionally go there and appreciate our once upon a time artistic skills.  

brain DRAINED

brain is soo on fire due to excess neural firings @@

as long as cant find a perfect way to help, i just wont stop- not because i wanna rescue, but as a human, i want to help another being stepping on the fine line, between life, and death. 

一个机会的评价

每个人都应该被给一个公平的机会去证明自己。

如果带着有色的眼光去评价，那学到的事情就很少了。